happy birthday to my baby sister. i told her today '22 years ago you came into my life and disrupted y world of being the youngest girl in our family!"

:)

i can't count the number of times i think "if i only had this..." or "if my life was only like that..." THEN i'd be happy.

lies.

it's all a lie...

i am happy. (to varying degrees at any given moment)

and life is in a constant state of change.

i went to the gym with angela today. i forgot how much time there is to think while you're pumping your legs on an elliptical machine, and i was suddenly overcome with some amazingly freeing thoughts. my favorite: "We are never beyond redemption."

amen...