Monday, December 13, 2010

it's SO cliche to say i have ADHD... but it's true...

i don't like it when people use any sort of emotional/mental/physical "abnormality" as a crutch. nobody's perfect. we've all got something that doesn't function the way we'd like it to. right?
well, about a year ago i took a screening test which said i scored a 99 on its scale-- anything above 70 they considered "high" probability of having adult adhd. so... there's that.
i'm starting to learn that having adhd is more than just not being able to sit still or pay attention. the more i read the more i realize how many of the frustrations in my personality can be explained and understood because of this challenge. not that this is an excuse- it's part of who i am. it's not going to go away. i don't really want it to. i would like to find a way to cope with it better so that i can help those around me cope with me.
does that make sense?

for instance, the questions on the test are as follows (keep in mind i answered "very much" or "quite a lot" to every single one of these...):

1. Do you have a sense of underachievement, of not meeting your goals, regardless of how much you have actually accomplished?

2. I find it difficult to read written material unless it is very interesting or very easy.

3. Especially in groups, I find it hard to stay focused on what is being said in conversations.

4. I have a quick temper...a short fuse.

5. I am irritable, and get upset by minor annoyances.

6. I say things without thinking, and later regret having said them.

7. I make quick decisions without thinking enough about their possible bad results.

8. My relationships with people are made difficult by my tendency to talk first and think later.

9. My moods have highs and lows.

10. I have trouble planning in what order to do a series of tasks or activities.

11. I easily become upset.

12. I seem to be thin skinned and many things upset me.

13. I almost always am on the go.

14. I am more comfortable when moving than when sitting still.

15. In conversations, I start to answer questions before the questions have been fully asked.

16. I usually work on more than one project at a time, and fail to finish many of them.

17. There is a lot of "static" or "chatter" in my head.

18. Even when sitting quietly, I am usually moving my hands or feet.

19. In group activities it is hard for me to wait my turn.

20. My mind gets so cluttered that it is hard for it to function.

21. My thoughts bounce around as if my mind is a pinball machine.

22. My brain feels as if it is a television set with all the channels going at once.

23. I am unable to stop daydreaming.

24. I am distressed by the disorganized way my brain works.

there ya go.

this is my world.

love me or leave me i guess... (i suggest the former)

and yes, i somehow got on this kick while working on increasing my vocabulary for the GRE...

enough of this malingering.

Monday, October 18, 2010

there are so many things i should be doing right now.

but i haven't blogged in like a billion years. i mean, it's mid FALL for cryin out loud.
life's been busy. and entertaining. and dynamic. etc, etc, etc.

so here i sit. it's "cold" here today. i love it. i'm sitting outside at starbucks on this sunshiney morning. i'm wearing my fleece and sippin some delightful soy cinnamon dolce latte. yum. i just got done working my YMCA job and i'm scheduled to work at the cheese shop from open until i have to go back to the kiddos at 2:45pm. thought it would be more fun to stay out and about all day today. i get distracted at home and never get any work done. i've got lots to do for sommelier class and now i've got an adventure to plan with hope. we're going away this weekend. oh man... might be in over my head on this one... :)

i'm not really sure how to update my life over the past uhh 4 months. gosh has it really been that long since i blogged last? yeesh. fail.
i still work for the Y. i'm also at cheese louise at least once a week. i'm taking a sommelier class so i can be a wine expert... or something like that. i spend a lot of time at gold's gym. angie spent the better part of the summer with us. i got stitches this summer right before my trip home to michigan. i got in a car accident a few weeks ago (still waiting to get my car fixed.. bleh). mom and dani came to visit in august (we went to portland on a train). i'm slowly making friends of my own. murphy and evan built me a room (which i painted green). and now, somehow it's mid october. time feels like it's spinning out of control away from me. i never feel like i have time for anything because i'm too busy doing everything, but at the same time i rationalize that i'm not really THAT busy. maybe it's because i spend a lot of time with people. i try to make a point to plan as many 1 on 1 "dates" with people as possible. i got into this bad habit of forgetting about relationships with others for awhile in my life, so being out here is a fresh start of sorts. plus i want to spend as much time with hope as possible before she leaves for uganda in january.

all that said, i probably should get back to doing something productive.
hope you've enjoyed this update... :)

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

summer at the Y is much different than school year. it's a lot more work, that's for sure. but i do like my new co-workers. it's been good to meet some more people in the tri-cities. and it's very funny that rachel (who works am/pm with me) went to wheaton. small world?
i've bike commuted three times in the past 2 weeks. i like it. even today when it was hot, i still liked it. go me.
you know what i don't like? the three stitches in my left hand. *sigh* go me again...
i had an incident with a large knife.

anyway, i leave friday night for michigan. the first 3 days are going to be ridiculous. working a marathon day on friday (as usual) and flying through the night to get to detroit by 6:30am. i think the family reunion starts around noon on saturday? so that all day, then either leaving saturday night or sunday to head up to evart with elisabeth.
monday morning will involve a lot of sleeping...

it will be good to get away for a week i think. for a lot of reasons. things are good here, but flying across the country for a week allows for a bit of perspective to take hold. and i need some perspective right now.

i also was hoping to do more fun outdoorsey things this summer, since i actually have time off. but that hasn't happened quite as much as i planned. oh well, still 2 more months of summer and a very warm fall to look forward to, right?

the end.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

yeah, i'm still here.
busy. (when is it not?)
but here.

life's good. it's getting HOT here.
i'm falling in love with my new bike. i biked to the shop from the 503 yesterday (11 miles). it was sweet. hoping to start bike commuting this week with my job relocating to vista elementary for the summer, only 5 miles. if i can get myself to leave the house by 5:15am i can bike every morning. contemplating biking afternoons too, or maybe one or the other... might be too hot. not enough shade here in the desert...

my garden is garden is getting HUGE. oh man. i think the tomato plants are going to take over the entire universe. can't wait until they're ready to pick.

i'll be heading to michigan in less than 2 weeks for a week long "vacation". i booked my ticket months ago, but it still seems like it has snuck up on me. like HUZZAH it's SUMMER.


Monday, May 3, 2010

musings, updates, thoughts, windy days...

i'm sneaky practicing my facilitation skills lately on my YMCA kids.
i'm actually pretty excited about it- this is the most diverse developmental age range i believe i've ever facilitated teambuilding type activities for. (K-5th grade)
they love it, and it's starting to change them. it's amazing how being consistent on just a few things over the past month has produced some awesome changes in those kids, from insisting they say "please" and "thank you" to the way they approach doing homework. this job is a unique learning experience for sure.
i think this entire time in my life is unique- but then again, so has most of my life since college. i sort of love my life.
though i will admit i'm already feeling that familiar itch to figure out "what's next". but only because i'm so used to searching. obviously i don't see myself working at the YMCA before/after school position i'm in now for the rest of my life, i am sort of setting the goal to stay here a year though. we'll see how that goes. i was pretty set on it until i started feeling that familiar aching to take an outward bound course. there is one in the pacific northwest this fall... it's 50 days and $6000. if i could get a scholarship to pay for half i might be able to do it. but only maybe. and part of it is the money, the other big part is my body- my back and i have not been best friends lately. partly because i'm trying to avoid taking painkillers. i just want my back to stop hurting. ugh.

when people ask me what i want to do with the rest of my life i really don't know what to tell them. i'm happy here now. sometimes i want to think about "someday", but most days, i'm content living in the wonder that is today.

i'm thankful for each thing i've learned at each stage of my unpredictable life. i appreciate seeing each lesson play out tangibly and beautifully before my very eyes. even just now, as i was typing, holed up in my room for the first time since i've lived down here in the basement, and murphy came in and we spent the last half hour chatting. (though she made me go outside... it's cold out there!) i remember making a promise to myself to strive to put relationships in a higher priority in my life. even when that makes my calculated life a little less comfortable. i am, in many ways, quite an introvert.

in summation, i have no idea what beautiful portrait the landscape of my life will be when all is said and done. all i know is i want it to be said of me that i loved Jesus and loved others, wholeheartedly, unselfishly, recklessly.

grace and peace to you this day.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Hope, Hero, and I went to palouse falls this weekend.
it was beautiful.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

i decided to pretend our dog hero is actually my dog.
because i want a dog. i really really want a dog. even though we have 2 1/2 dogs, i want a dog.
so, instead of the overall financial and time investment, for now i will pretend our 4 year old golden retriever named hero is my dog. he's already my running buddy. and he sleeps outside my "door" and pokes his head in to make sure i'm there. so yesterday i bought him some hiking gear for our camping trip in a few weeks. :) a backpack, collapsable bowl, a new collar, etc. :) he's so cute in his backpack... we put the rat-dog in one of the pouches last night and he carried her around. it was incredibly amusing.

yesterday i started my new job. i can tell already it's going to be the most low key job i've ever had. this is not a bad thing. not at all. the kids are really sweet and one of them is named "thor". i love it.

life is good right now. still figuring out life here in the tri-cities, but i like it so far.
oh and i'm really official now: i got my WA license in the mail yesterday. :)

Saturday, April 3, 2010

planning so many adventures with miss Hopie..... :)

2 weeks till our first camping trip...

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

inquiring minds...

if you're reading this i'm assuming you followed the link and you're interested in finding out more about where i am and what i'm doing these days.

current location: kennewick, washington. aka "the tri cities" or "the 503". there are lots of friends and puppies here for me to hang out with.

i've been here for 3 weeks now. and it's ACTUALLY spring here. yes, michigan friends, it CAN stop snowing before the end of march! who knew?! i've even started a garden from seed! well, nothing is growing yet... it's only been a few days. :)

i start my new job on monday.
job: YMCA childcare site supervisor for an elementary aged before and after school program. this means i plan and implement YMCA programs for 20-30 kids M-F before and after school at an elementary school. in the summer my role will change a bit for summer day camp YMCA programs.
i will know more about my job when i start it, but it seems like it will be a lot of fun and allow for me to gain experience planning programs. i also will have a schedule that allows for me to spend time with my friends at cheese louise (the shop owned by evan, murphy, and alex).

for those in the pancone family that are concerned, have no fear, i am most definitely planning on coming back to michigan for the family reunion at the end of june! :)

so that's not incredibly descriptive, but hopefully it will be enough for now!

Monday, March 22, 2010

maybe someday i'll get back to being a good blogger.
lately i kinda stink at it.
sorry world, i know you count on my updates to make it through each day...

things have been going well here so far.
i do have these moments where i kinda freak out and want to run away. but this is very typical for me, so it only brings mild concern. i have just learned to deal with the fact that i'm always going to wonder if wherever i am is the "best" or "right" place for me to be. the truth is that it doesn't really matter. life is life, dynamic and changing. nothing is ever for sure.

sometimes i get frustrated about the things that make me who i am- mostly the things that are a blessing and a curse. the stellar attributes that result in other traits that are less than desirable. the longing for adventure which paves way for an inability to feel settled, or when i do feel settled i get anxious, desperate to move on. a flexibility in life that results in the inability to make decisions, or worse, apathy. the desire for excellence, creating an unattainable perfectionism standard leading to feelings of worthlessness.

today i decided to bake cookies. this isn't abnormal lately- in the past week and a half i've baked pineapple cake, chocolate cookies, brownies, and oatmeal cookies. it's nice to have a kitchen again. anyway, as i was baking murphy was on the phone with the camp she consults for in cali and was talking camp stuff... and, i hate to say it, but it totally made me camp-sick. i blame the weather. though it's only late march here, it feels like early may, which means prep for summer camp season. it's super weird to not be preparing for summer camp this year. i think my camp detox is going to be really hard... hopefully being here will help. partly because murphy and evan are here and they know what it's like. i'm still not convinced that i won't eventually be at camp again someday... but God only knows.

last week i had an interview for a job here. it was one i'd applied for about a month ago and was kind of surprised they called me. it's with the YMCA and it sounds like a good fit for me right now. the big thing is i need a WA driver's license... which means officially changing my residency to washington state. that kind of permanency is downright terrifying. and also kind of a pain in the butt. i need to get proof that i live here, etc and it is going to be a process. mom called me and courtney texted me saying they'd heard from the YMCA people today for references, so i guess things are moving along.
this is difficult.
because it means giving up the possibility that was starting to exist for me to go back to springhill. but i think this is the right choice right now, as tough as it may be.

life continues to amaze me, and by that i mean God continues to amaze me.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

and away we go.


here i am.

where is here?
the tri-cities, washington state.

how did i get here?
good question.
the answer is a rockin kickin hip hoppin road trip with angalaaaaaa.

monday morning i finished packing up my car and drove to the west side of the state to pick up my drivin buddy. from there we made our way through indiana and illinois, stopped at the wisconsin dells (uhh hilarious), and ended up in mankato, mn. we stayed the night with my dear sweet friend heather (former GPA with me). it was so great to see her again! :)

tuesday angela and i continued on our way. our goal: mount rushmore. dead presidents' faces carved in rock: pretty much everything i ever dreamed it would be. we had dinner at a local brewpub then continued on our way. we made it all the way to bozeman, montana despite the snowy, less than perfect driving conditions we found ourselves in. wednesday was absolutely gorgeous. the perfect day to drive through the mountains of montana and northern idaho. oh man, northern idaho was beautiful. coeur d'alane is just fantastic. i think i said "OH MY GOSH" about a thousand times while admiring the beauty and awesomeness.

due to our incredible devotion to the open road, angela and i made it to the tri-cities in record time. seriously. awesome. it was SO great to pull up to the shop and see evan and alex! we stayed for a bit, then drove over to kennewick to see murphy and unpack my car.
that evening we got to see the dress rehearsal for murphy's play (which officially opened last night). it was super fun. we loved it. :)

thursday angela and i decided to bike from kennewick to the shop- about 12 miles. it was windy and kinda rainy and so much fun! we stayed at the shop for awhile and played some hardcore dutch blitz with evan. after that we headed home and made dinner for everyone and had a lovely evening of tv watching and couch cuddling.

yesterday i took angela to the airport. SAD.
then i hung out at the shop all day.

and today hope and i hiked a mountain.
and i made murphy a coke-ay (bouquet of coke cans)

now you're all caught up.
hopefully that makes you feel better.

how long am i staying here you ask?
i dunno.
i'll let you know when i know, k? k.


Tuesday, March 2, 2010

everything's bouts ta get all crazy up in here.

wait for it...............

Sunday, February 28, 2010

if you ask me what i'm doing next in life i'll probably give you either a dirty look or a mischievous smile... depending on my mood.

because again i say to you, i just don't know.
and that's ok.
oh i've got lots of ideas. and plenty of offers. i'm just waiting to see where things go.
is that vague enough for you?

it will be fabulous i'm sure, and you have my permission to continue living vicariously though my life.

last weekend i was in a 4 mile snow race through the woods on foot, went sledding down a 100ft vertical drop on the sand dunes of lake michigan, and went skiing at caberfae.

Monday, February 22, 2010

sometimes i just can't believe how much God cares for every single detail of my life.
God is so good.
oh gosh...
so good...

my body hurts from extreme winter sporting this weekend.
snow day at work today... so i crafted all day. :)
applying for jobs, stepping out in faith... hoping to plan a move soon...

watching the olympics. i want one of those blue star jackets.

the END.

Monday, February 15, 2010

the internet says i have ADHD.
(i scored a 93 out of 100)

elisabeth agrees.

this explains so much....

"...You will be there for me even in my greatest need to wash away my fears, You are the sun You are the rain, You are the light of the world, You make everything so beautiful..." sevenglory, so beautiful

Saturday, February 13, 2010

life has continued on its whirlwind path and i feel like i can hardly keep up.

last weekend i headed up to springhill to volunteer for a WTR. it was fantastic. i loved seeing great friends and hanging out with kids i didn't have to yell at all the time. (my fifth graders have been a handful at the OEC...)

last week was a 4 day work week, which was sweet. we also got a a bunch of snow! we've been waiting for it for months.

in other news, my aunt rosie died on thursday. she'd been in the hospital for a few weeks and hadn't felt well in months. death is such a weird thing. i haven't had to deal with it much in life, so it's hard for me to figure out what to do with in my brain. the funeral is on tuesday, and i already have monday off work for president's day, so it looks like i'm working a 3 day week next week.

ah yes, my work life. i don't mind my job i suppose, but then there's the whole we're working for 2 weeks, then off for 6, then on for 3 days, then off for another week and a half, then on for like 4 weeks, then done. if you do that math, it's about 7 weeks of work for the next 4 months. these are relatively recent developments and i still haven't determined what to do next. i really want to move to washington, but i'm not sure that will work out right. i've also spent some time working on some outdoor ed ideas for springhill, but i don't know what (if anything) will become of that.
i'm just taking life one step at a time. that's all i can do really.

this weekend is the epic SEM girl SHX WTR reunion tour. well, it's 3 of the SEM girls at least. too bad we're old now and are far less excitable about camp things. ok, courtney and elisabeth fall into that category. i'm still pretty wide eyed and wholeheartedly loving every second of our attempt to recapture the glory of our college years volunteering. we'll see how today goes with my 2 grumpy friends.

speaking of, i should get ready for the day.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

happy birthday to my baby sister. i told her today '22 years ago you came into my life and disrupted y world of being the youngest girl in our family!"

i can't count the number of times i think "if i only had this..." or "if my life was only like that..." THEN i'd be happy.

it's all a lie...

i am happy. (to varying degrees at any given moment)
and life is in a constant state of change.

i went to the gym with angela today. i forgot how much time there is to think while you're pumping your legs on an elliptical machine, and i was suddenly overcome with some amazingly freeing thoughts. my favorite: "We are never beyond redemption."


Sunday, January 31, 2010


it's cold.
i'm keeping my mac on my lap to keep me warm.

this weekend has been pretty great.
friday (after a LONG day at work) i drove down to findlay for bob's birthday party. it involved about 60 people i didnt know, but i still had a lot of fun.
yesterday i drove up to ann arbor to hang out with the allman girls and then met up with frances and tim for an afternoon/evening of fun.
now i'm sitting at mom's house watching hockey. i'll head back to battle creek later today sometime. not sure when yet.

this week and next i'm on dorms with miss angela. i'm excited to spend time with her. :)

life's up for some potential changes.
too much tbd at this point to post about... but i'll let ya know...

that's all i've got right now. i'm lame, i know. sorry...

Monday, January 25, 2010

i cant help but be filled with joy when songs from RENT come up on pandora.

my ambitions list for 2010 is getting pretty extensive.
and i MEAN IT this time.
i think...

i'm going to be the most well read, social, eco-conscious, advocate for social justice, money saving, uber-traveled, people loving.... etc.... person EVER in 2010.
or something.

la vie boheme!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

foot. ball.

i'm kind of torn right now.
i'm really annoyed that after 6 weeks off work i'm still sitting here on the couch when i should be driving back to battle creek by now.
my face is swollen and sore and it's really frustrating to have been sitting around for 5 days. ugh. hate hate hate.
i called in (emailed in?) sick for tomorrow. i had to leave a message, so i hope that goes ok. i didnt really have a choice since my face/head hurts so bad and i can't talk very well and my face is swollen.... AGHHHH.

now i'm watching football. lots and lots of football. that seems to have been a trend over break.
good job colts.
come on vikings.
my only problem will be if the vikings win and then take on the colts in the superbowl. because i dont know who i will root for. so much stress in my life. (ha.)

still not doing a very good job of making choices in my life. whether it be for the weekend or for the months ahead, i keep getting distracted. the truth is, i just dont know what i want anymore. ugh. it sucks to be indecisive.

Friday, January 22, 2010

my face is 3 times the normal size
and i'm stuck watching tv all day, which is getting pretty lame. i cant even focus enough to read, cuz i'm on DRUGS. i feel like i got punched in the face repeatedly. just like rocky.

wisdom teeth removal surgery recovery is coming slower than i hoped...

the end.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

covered in golden retriever hair...

i kind of want to cry right now.
but i'm in an airport and i'm not really a big crier... but if i was in my car driving away right now, i'd probably shed a few tears. cars are good for that. crying, loud music, singing- the best kind of catharsis. but i'll be spending the next 14 hours in an airport/airplane. PSC-SFO, SFO-ORD, ORD-DTW. yikes.

but i digress.
stream of consciousness...

the last 17 days have absolutely flown by. no joke. granted, i feel as though i've been here forever in some ways too. like there was no beginning and there would be no end to this trip.
and it was glorious.

but in my heart i knew this day would come.
i knew i'd be sitting at the pasco airport at a ridiculously early hour, waiting to head back to michigan (against my will). alex drove me to the airport this morning in the mini cooper. which was sweet. i really like that car. i also found it fitting, because i'm pretty sure i spent more time with alex on this trip than i did with any other person. and i enjoyed every moment of it. i appreciate the fact that we can just laugh together about pretty much anything. there's a lot more i appreciate about him, but it doesn't seem quite right to list off all of the adventures and hilarity we've had right here in this post. it wouldn't make a lot of sense to anyone but me, so i'll save that for the old paper journal.

last night murphy, jess, and i were scheming about planning a sweet hiking trip this spring. murphy laughed that i was already planning my next trip to the tri-cities. i really do love it here. AND next time i come i get to see evan, which is an added bonus on top of the felton/eberle clan.

i might already be scoping out potential job ideas here. don't get excited, i haven't made ANY decisions yet, but i do realize that my job ends the first week of june, and there have been no solid plans made beyond that at this point. and i love it here. there is already a community of people here that i know and love, and maybe it's time for me to try living life outside of the camp world. working at camp has been my "dream job" for the past 5 years, but maybe i've already grown out of it. i've looked at hundreds of jobs in the past few years, but none have seemed to be just quite right. i have to be honest, the one i'm in right now is ok, but it's not a great fit. i can't believe they even want me to stay. i'm not really 100% suited to the job, and it's consistently incredibly humbling. i'm super nervous about going back after having a month and a half off. i'm sure i've forgotten everything i'm supposed to be doing/teaching kids. i foresee this leading to even more humbling experiences...

tomorrow morning is one to be dreaded. i have already postponed this un-delightful experience by over a week, and i'm not any more excited by it at this point. that's right, tomorrow is the day i get my wisdom teeth out. i've never had surgery before and i do NOT do well with needles. the only part i'm looking forward to (if you can call it that) is 5 days of sleeping afterwards. ha. though it would be nice to be recovered by the weekend enough to hang out with friends before heading back to work. we'll see.

*sigh* 45 minutes till i board my first flight.

"and it seems to me some kind of harmony is on the rise..." dr.horrible's sing along blog, my eyes

Saturday, January 16, 2010

things are slow here at the shop right now.
it's been a good day though.
my favorite part was either hanging out with the italian family that came in earlier (6 year old cassia is my new best friend) or trying desperately not to laugh when this lady asked alex and i if we were "freshly married."
oh my.

i'm not good at both starting and finishing projects.
i can start projects. i can finish other people's projects.
but starting and finishing a project all by myself?? now that's a difficult task.

i work well with others. i do ok on my own, but the magic happens when i have other people to bounce ideas off of and spur on to greatness.

this is why i couldn't ever write a book by myself. or a song. ok i've done that like twice, but it was less than stellar. and yes, that's the ONLY reason i cannot do these things... my inability to finish a project.
that's why i blog well. short and simple. stream of conscious writing. fantastic...

i also think of great lyrics/thoughts from time to time. they could probably be put together with other words and rhymes and such and make up something quite beautiful. ah but the effort... and project deficiency. *sigh*

related or not...

a few hopelessly romantic word-thoughts i've had lately... probably brought on mostly by the large amount of the jason mraz pandora station:
-i want a boy to sing me songs and make ridiculous promises he has no intention of keeping.
(also songs about how i should break up with my boyfriend because he is clearly a better match. though this would require 2 boys to be interested in me simultaneously.... i'd settle for 1.)
-if a guy ever burst into an improvisational vocal duet with me (complete with a choreographed dance routine in a dim to mildly indirect lit space) i'd be his forever, hands down. no questions asked.
-boys should never compliment me. i will always take it the wrong way.

i go back to michigan on tuesday morning at the crack of dawn.
this saddens me on many levels.


Friday, January 8, 2010

dear tri-cities inhabitants,

please stop being lame. 8pm is far too early to head back to your house on a friday night. look, we here at cheese louise have stayed open for you, providing a trendy late night hangout for you and your friends. cheese, wine, coffee... can life get better? i submit that it cannot! and if you're not into the pandora playlist of classical jazz music (um i'm about to throw up from hearing the same style of music for so many hours straight, so i do not blame you) i will gladly keep the weezer playing. yes, that's what i'm blaring at the moment while alex naps in the back. now if i only had a glass of wine of my very own...

put simply, come visit. spend your money. eat some cheese.

love, krista

ok for realizies, i like being here. really i do. but i hateeee when no one comes in. especially on the late nights, cuz though i have a bunch of projects i'm too tired to do them. i can fake energy when guests come in, but when it's just me and alex and the wordless random jazz provided by pandora|one, i start to zone out and it's more than i can handle. and we still have 2 hours. ahhh. maybe i'll get a second wave of energy here in a bit. let's hope so. if not, loud rock music and mindless internet surfing it is.

tonight begins the first wtr at springhill. i was supposed to be there. then i hopped a plane to washington... so...
i'm not gonna lie, i'm a little bummed to not be there. but i also have to remember that there are 10 more after this one. well, next week i'll still be here, and the week after that i'll probably be recovering from surgery, so that wont work out either. but that still leaves 8 more.
that's a lot of wtrs.

i'm ready for snow.
so ready for snow.
there's snow at home. there is not snow here.
luckily i have a job that provides lots of opportunities to be in the snow.

i need to start seriously training for this race in may... that's also code for i need more angela van drunen in my life. seriously hanging out with her is one of the reasons i'm not entirely dreading going back to work. angela hang out time is a huge perk of my life at the oec.
bah, my first week back is going to be rough. this i know.

yeah i dont really have anything else to say.
murphy comes back from cali tonight.


mmm so i like it here.
i kind of never want to back to my 'real' life.
at least i've still got another week and a half in washington selling cheese and hanging out with amazing people.
then i have to go get 2 teeth ripped out of my face.
then i go back to work.